Nothing is always absolutely so.

I said I'd do it like a week ago and then let the whole damn thing get away from me and naturally preorders for rb's zine close today bUT HERE GREENS MACKIN'



boy i sure hope that img shows up correctly

I finally settled on a mailing list for the KU venture! Now I just need to actually get it up and running. Learning a lot about this, which is intimidating, but also very exciting? It's been a long time since I could wake up and be excited about going to "work." So I hope this works out!

I really really appreciate everyone's comments and messages of support so far 💗💙💚 Thank you so so much! Part of what makes me excited about dedicating most of my time to writing now is the anticipation and joy of getting to share it with y'all. (Also, in case anyone is curious, this first thing I'm planning on publishing is an extremely fluffy romcom thing. It's been a nice little feel-good break for me from the more drama-heavy stuff going on in my fic!life, heh.) The balance is really working for me so far and I hope that keeps it sustainable for me for a long time.

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Thanks so much for the love on the new TEF/MTH chapter everyone! I'm always so honored by your reviews and comments and tumblr posts, especially given how infrequently I update this damn thing. Thank you, thank you, thank you 💗💙💚

I mentioned that I'm working on something original in between chapters and I'm happy to report I finished the roadmap for Act 3 of it today! I've changed my process a lot from what it used to be; rather than sit and agonize over lines and taking an hour to churn out a page now I sit and agonize over a roadmap for a section (in this case, an act) for either a 25 or 50 minute pomodoro section. Which usually results in about a page-ish of mostly descriptive, unformatted blocks of text that then get turned into actual prose and dialogue. That second part has made what feels like a huge difference in the writing process, because once I have that roadmap and I start actually writing I'm flying. Generally I'm doing 50-70 wpm with a roadmap; without I'm hovering between 20-30 wpm. Again, that probably evens out given all the work that goes into the roadmap part, but man, it feels so great to be writing at that speed.

I've also been looking into starting a mailing list for the original stuff. This has always been primarily a fandom blog and space for me and I'd like to keep it that way for the most part. I wonder if I can get that up and running this week? We'll see we'll see.

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This is probably going to be a tiny amount of text considering the updates BUT even so! Big life changes for me as of late. Big life changes meaning I think I

mayhaps

perhaps

am thinking of doing the writing thing full time

.

a scary thing to say out loud for me

But the time away from grinding irl has just. I don't know, given me a lot of perspective. Not having my head cluttered with thinking about how to fix other people's problems has left me a lot of room to think about how to fix my own problems. Amazingly, it's also given me the headspace I need to actually write.

TEF Ch13 is back from beta and I'm currently working on revisions, so that's coming soon. In between TEF chapters I've been working on other projects, which include a short(ish) contemporary romcom I'm planning to throw on Amazon KU (TERRIFYING), should all go according to plan. (Most of the other projects are PpG fic so I'm definitely not abandoning fic writing altogether!)

I've been trying to figure out if I should post preview chapters of the original story up on Ko-Fi or Patreon or something. Amazon's pretty restrictive about publishing work exclusive to them, though, so I may not? I'm looking into if there's a way to make it work without breaking their rules. I need to get a mailing list set up, too! Things things things.

It does feel so good to be writing on a regular basis again, though. I'm really happy, happier and more emotionally satisfied than I've been in a long time. Hopefully I can make this work; cross your fingers for me everyone. I'll see about posting a TEF snippet from the upcoming chapter later this week :)

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I finally have a CHAPTER ENDING!!!

... I mean, there's still the transitional stuff to finish. But still! I'm very pleased with how the scene turned out, too. Again, one of those situations where I thought what I had there was garbage but turns out only a tiny amount of it was garbage. I suppose my feelings about this could very well change tomorrow, but for now, it's a success!

Close to hitting my personal deadline for this, though now I have other writing deadlines that are creeping up on me. I gotta start booking on this stuff.

Also another small thing to celebrate - I always forget that I keep my working file a smaller font size than my publish file. So while I thought this was in the range of a 35ish page chapter, it's probably uhhhhh more than that. I assume the sections I'm cutting will be offset by the transition additions that are pending. Guessing this one will be about 18k words. On the lower side of the chapter average, and certainly not as high a count as it's been in the past, but that's arguably for the better. I was way too wordy in the beginning.

how do i end this post. but also why do i care

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The elation I felt the other day was fleeting. I remembered why i didn't look at my outline for so long. It's because structurally something I was originally anticipating happening in ch18 had to be moved to ch17. Which means ch17 is going to be long. And there's so much happening in it.

On the plus side, a lot of it genuinely is written. Like, probably somewhere between 60-70% of it. Actually that can't be right. Probably closer to 80-90%. I'm overinflating the scene transitions that I need to write; I always overestimate what's needed in those cases. That said, it does still need my 1st revision pass, followed by beta round 1, then likely another round of revisions/beta. But we're close! Certainly closer than we were a few days ago. It's felt genuinely good to get into a TEF/MTH rhythm again.

By the by, in going through my files, I dug up these mock school schedules I'd done for Blossom and Brick's Senior year. I think I might have talked about this before but that was likely ages ago. Originally I did these for all three of the girls in their Junior year, but for Senior year I only did the Reds' schedules since their plot points for this last part wound up being a little more tied in to the story.

( This isn't that exciting, but here they are in case you're curious! )

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