dear god just let me be buried here

Finally finished my revisions and read-through of ch11, so that's off to Round 2 of beta. God that read-through had no business taking that long. It offends me how long that took. Well, it does and doesn't. Just the idea. Whatever.

Since I'm in the TEF mindset, I reckon I'll be moving on to the FD11a revisions I got stalled on. And then when I get stalled on those again I'll circle back around to the ficlets that have been taking me 9 months to write so far.

Speaking of the ficlets, I did find some additional scrapped bits in my notes app from back in October for that Reds share a bed ficlet. I initially jotted these down from Brick's POV.

Are you really leaving Yeah Do you have to You should go back to your room Do I have to *turn* *kiss*

His hair has gotten long again

Her mouth still tastes faintly of the travel size mouthwash from the bathroom, hasn't yet soured, and it somehow makes this feel more perfect, more inevitable, more like kismet. The stars aligning for him, for them. Just this once.

It's chilly. Want me to adjust the thermostat?

Her knees bump into his and he wants to touch them, suddenly. But she's burrowing close now.

"Whatever you say, boss/You're the boss"

I remember reading over these the next day and thinking 'I don't want to do this from Brick's POV, I don't want him to drive the narrative of the story and besides that I already wrote Lorca from his POV' so during my actual writing time on this one I re-centered on Blossom. While there's things I do like about writing from the Boys' POVs, I want to avoid it as much as possible when it comes to describing physical desire/attraction. I don't want to play into any sort of Madonna/Whore tropes with the Girls, especially since the Good v Evil thing already exists between them and the Boys. I have lots of thoughts on this which maybe I'll get around to someday.

Anyway some of y'all are gonna lose your minds in this next chapter and I apologize in advance