The last little love song on this planet.

[essbeejay]

Closing Statements. Or, Why I Am Such A Huge Nerd About This Shit.

Allow me to confess this one thing: I don't ship anymore. I know it makes no sense. But I don't. At least, not as it pertains to fandom. The books I read now and the shows I watch now—while I may love certain characters, and want to see two characters get together, the desire to get on the internet and engage in fandom and read/write fanfic (not just ship!fic, but any fanfic) has completely left me. No matter how much I may enjoy a show/book, I don't derive that sort of joy out of playing with the text of origin anymore.

Except for this one.

And seriously? I don't know why that is! I don't know why I cling to PpG so tightly. I mean, all my other fandoms have fallen by the wayside (of which there were very few in the first place). I was out of Teen Titans before the show was done, I had that short venture into TMNT that didn't go anywhere and isn't likely to, and I'd stopped reading H/D long before the seventh book came out. (At least, I stopped reading everything that didn't have Maya's name slapped on it.)

The stuff I'm into now—like, would I love to see more Rachel/Puck? Hit me. (And btw, it's actually happening!) Do I giggle over Tiffany Aching's tingles of romance in her third book? Last I checked, the sky was still blue. (Well, grey-blue from all the pollution, but anyway.) When I heard about the Avatar (NOT THAT SHIT MOVIE WITH THE NINE-FOOT TALL BLUE CAT PEOPLE) ship!wars between Kataang and Zutara, did I shit a brick when the one I thought less likely happened in canon? While I wasn't involved in the fandom and was removed from all that crazy drama, you bet your fucking firstborn child I did. Was it unfair to introduce Chuck to someone as awesome as Lou and then have the whole thing crash and burn and never mention her again? Yes it was >:C And how much did I want Madarame to confess to Kasukabe (God, so much!!!) in Genshiken, or for Eri to have an epiphany about Harima in School Rumble? Does my frequent use of the italics tag make it obvious?!?! Because it should!!!

And yet I'm done with fanfic. I don't seek any out or have any desire to write any, even if it's revisionist. The bug has left me.

Except, as I mentioned, for this one.

Maybe I just love it too much to let it go. I love the Girls, I'll never stop loving them! (If the gallons of money I've poured into filling my limited living space with their bug-eyed likeness has anything to say about it, that is.) Besides how funny the show was, how the art style was just my type of aesthetic, how I loved its use of color and the visual gags and the character acting... I loved the Girls. I loved seeing girls—kids—like that on TV.

And as for shipping PpG/RrB... you know, it wouldn't happen now. It wouldn't have happened at any point within the past few years, since the show entered its last few seasons and went off the air. But they got me early. And in playing with the original text in my head, the Boys grew into characters in their own right, characters that I became very attached to and started to love and wouldn't dream of letting go. (Although they'll never, ever surpass the girls.) Yeah, it proves that their characterizations are pretty much fanon. Though I will argue (and point you to each respective section of this long-ass essay) that those fanon characterizations have some basis in canon, as much as Mojo Jojo can be portrayed as a sympathetic villain worthy of Blossom's love, or Buttercup can be portrayed as coming to terms with her very non-heterosexual feelings towards Princess, or Him can be portrayed as subconsciously wanting love and finding it in Bubbles despite being the Most Evil Being of All Time, or Ace can be portrayed as a guy roughened by years of hardship and trying to hold his gang (the “kids”) together while Buttercup looks on and falls for him again in the process.

You can't define any one interpretation as being superior to the other except as it pertains to you. There is nothing out there that tells you you cannot ship or believe what you like and be happy about it. So ship what you like. Ship what makes you happy. And be good to each other. We're all here because we love the show. At the very least, that proves we all have excellent, excellent taste :)

I don't know how long I'll stick around (though it's now just over eight years and counting, which is an embarrassingly damn long time), and to be frank, I'm a little apprehensive that spending too much time here will hurt anything original I try to come up with. But I'm not ready to go yet, and I'm not ready to let go of these characters that I love so much, even though they aren't mine. Someday I'll have my own that make me ten times happier than the Girls and the Boys.

But I'm happy now, so it'll be awhile yet.

ETA: Here's the Master ToC/Link list for all the individual bits of this essay.

0. Ridiculous rambling intro. Or, An Epic Effigy of Burning Epicness.
I. Real intro! Or, Me and Buttercup and Brick and Every-other-fucking-body-you-know.

Disclaimer. Or, Dude, If You're Going to Read Any Part of This, Please Read This, Too.

II. Why PpG/RrB has so much appeal. Or, Who Are All These Idiots, What the Fuck Are They Doing in My Fandom, and Why Won't They Leave Already?!?!

II.a. The Issue of Counterparts. Or, If You Want to Get Academic About It, “Freud Has Been Discredited, But Jung Still Has His Merits.”

II.b. The Measure of a Non-Human. Or, Girls and Boys and Evil Brain Monkeys.

*Digression: Proximity Begets A Relationship.

II.c. Debunking the Evil Absolute Theorem. Or, Boys Will be Boys, Which is to Say, Dickheads.

III. The Blues. Or, I'm Just a Kid, but I LOVE HER, DAMMIT.

III.a. The Hair of Gold Heroine. Or, Everybody Loves a Martyr.

III.b. Abel Trying to be Cain. Or, A Lonely Heart Like Pagliacci.

III.c. I was a Quick, Wet, Boy... Or, Are You My Mother?

IV. The Greens. Or, The Jerkass Being Dommed by the Hot Amazon (and Subconsciously Enjoying It.)

IV.a. Anti-Girl, Tsundere, and Middle Child All Rolled into One. Or, A Girl Who Could Really Use a Hug. No, Really.

IV.b. Say Hello, Insanity. Or, Boys With Mental Issues Should Not Have Superpowers.

IV.c. You're Pulling Out the Best of Me (Which Never, Ever Comes). Or, Gutting Each Other Like Fish. Literally.

V. The Reds. Or, When An Emotionally Stunted Dickbag Loves A Tsundere.

V.a. Second Best to None, Son. Or, A Girl Possessed By Noble Heart.

V.b. Let Me See Just Who I Will Become. Or, I Am A Very Special Fucking Snowflake, Damn It!

V.c. 99 Problems (And A Bitch Makes 100). Or, Slow Dancing In A Burning Room.

VI. Closing Statements. Or, Why I Am Such A Huge Nerd About This Shit.

ETA 2: Holy shit the mere act of typing that all out makes it look massive D8)

Comments

[alicornmoon.livejournal.com]

The funny thing is now that I am older I can see other ships happening just fine besides the one I back but I can also go to great lengths to discount the other shipping in my mind next to my own. Like come up with very detailed canon backed reasoning why one ship would work over another and then add that reasoning into my AU. Not to make anyone else feel bad about their paring next to mine, but sort of to acknowledge the fandom universe as a real living breathing place where all canon happened, and crushes, break ups, babies, and flings (one night stand=/=love) are real, but love of my pairing could be to :3. I put all those shades in there, not to please other shippers even, but myself. Once you think of their world as real, only with its own rules, things get very interesting :3....

[wei-chan.livejournal.com]

If I do things with shipping, it's usually to broaden my view of the couples I like and state why I think my couples are possible and, more importantly, why I like them. More than anything, that's where I stick when it comes to doing stuff concerning pairings. I find, more often than not, that I end up just arguing with people that have the mentality of a thirteen-year-old, who's idea of giving a good argument is: "Kataang is awsome b/c it just is!!!!1!?e2qe2!"

But, it's also important to have fun with the pairings - which is what you do. Honestly, in a matter of twenty years, these ship wars aren't going to matter, so just have fun with it - that's the way I think, in my mind.

[alicornmoon.livejournal.com]

I can't do what you do, just because when I ship something I put all my passion behind it. Again, not to make people that ship other pairings feel bad, but just to give my pairings 100% of myself in a way :3. If I did that and tried to see that with everything I could see working, I would die :P. So, it's more being selective I guess and being true to how I see things. Who knows, in twenty years, what will and won't matter and whose fanfics will be remembered :3... It's not so much that I like shipping wars as much as I like a good (non-nasty) debate and am set in my ways *lol*(I could write an essay on the sky being green if someone pushed me to). At least, I can point to actual canon support...that is something, right? :\

[wei-chan.livejournal.com]

I think there have ever only been seven couples I've ever shipped with a passion: Brick/Blossom, Raven/Robin, Ichigo/Rukia, Elphaba/Fiyero, Ash(Satoshi)/Misty(Kasumi), Harry/Hermione and Zuko/Katara.

So, I can understand where you are coming from when it comes to putting all your passion behind it because I do that with those couples or with history (Whoo! Go WWII!).

Debate is good. I like good (non-nasty) debates because those actually make you think harder about the couple your shipping, but also come to understand the other side. There's nothing wrong with how you do things because you're not trying to hurt peoples' feelings, which is what I have a problem with when it comes to "fantards" who have no regard for others' points of views.

[alicornmoon.livejournal.com]

I like passion because if you care enough to feel that deeply about a pairing chances are you find really good reasons for supporting it :3.
Nasty debate is just...nasty. I had one girl online once use her physic major against me and pretty much say if I was passive aggressive (which I am, that is just me IRL) and didn't agree with her something must be deeply wrong with me mentally :P. Just..wah? O.o

[wei-chan.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I've had people tell me something must be wrong with me just because I'm non-confrontational. That's just part of our personalities *shrug*

[alicornmoon.livejournal.com]

It's like..so not wanting to say something bad makes you worst than someone that just flies off the handle all the time like their on a reality show (I hate reality shows actually, so much worshipping of awful people)?

[wei-chan.livejournal.com]

THANK! YOU! I don't understand the point of watching reality shows where we just idolize all the bad people do in their lives.

And I agree with you on everything. Just because I'm not flying off the handle, screaming at someone, doesn't mean there's something wrong with me. Dear Lord...

[alicornmoon.livejournal.com]

I know, when did being a good person become a weakness and not caring about being fashionable become something people *had* to change about you? Just..argh..I hate those 'What Not To Wear' shows just as much -.-

[wei-chan.livejournal.com]

I don't mind "What Not to Wear" as much, but even then I understand what you're saying. It really is sad because so many people preach about individuality, but then TV shows like "Keeping Up with the Kardashians" do the opposite to young minds.

[alicornmoon.livejournal.com]

And it is like you are only young (aka younger sixty) once (in this life at least) why not feel good in what you think looks good than suddenly worry about what everyone else thinks for the rest of your life and be ruled by that? I mean, 'everyone else' hates wrinkles in the media but we are all going to age..*sighs* and no, we don't suddenly become that fourteen year old they get to replace our generation in shows :P

[wei-chan.livejournal.com]

Personally, I think people who accept their age with grace and dignity look so much better than those who try and fight it. They look classier. And yes, you should dress it what makes you feel comfortable and happy!

[alicornmoon.livejournal.com]

I know, most of the people that fight it look like zombies :O. Zombies with make up problems :P