Typing on mobile suuuucks

[essbeejay]

Can’t remember my pw on my laptop though so I’m stuck typing this on my phone which I do not recommend since dw is not optimized for mobile whatsoever but anyway

Still alive

I look back at that September post where I was like “Maybe NaNoWriMo this year!” and not one week later life just exploded ugh

This is not everything but some of what happened includes

Stupid money bs

A couple of deaths in the family

Oh hey unemployment!

Stupid money bs again

New computer (this is a yay at least but also the reason I am not posting this update via it bc I can’t remember my damn pw)

Also got covid for the first time somewhere in the midst of all that since last year and it was stupid and I was miserable bc I am weak, do not recommend

People were also randomly rude on the internet which is hardly a surprise but in the midst of everything happening it did make me pretty fucking depressed

Anyway it’s settled down considerably now and I’ve got a much better handle on things BUT more importantly am writing again. It’s good for me. It brings me so, so much pleasure to write. I’ll go through some of the different things I’m doing and will find a cookie to post this week. But thanks for being patient and for sticking around and for all your messages and sweet comments. I appreciate you all so much 💗🩵💚

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Comments

[asart]

i'm glad you're doing better :(
as cliche as it sounds, we're always stronger than we think and i think we need reminders of that. that's why life sucks sometimes! cz when it passes we feel a little bigger for getting through it

so happy you're updating us, stay healthy !!

[essbeejay]

I'm glad I'm doing better too, thank you! Yeah, the downs are necessary to appreciate the ups. Def appreciating the up moment right now, hope it lasts awhile!

[red_productions]

Fuck sorry to hear that things have been rough for you the past few months. Life and its frustrations can get in the way of our creative work and most people will (hopefully) be understanding of that. Glad you're feeling a bit better now though and I can't wait to see whatever you end up writing next. Wishing you the best.

[essbeejay]

Thanks so much red ♥ Really means a lot!

[e_fernweh]

It's good to hear you! I'm sorry that you had to deal with difficult situations, it's good to hear that things are going a bit better.
Sometimes it's important to focus on ourselves and concentrate on the things or people that make us better and happier.
It's always a pleasure to follow your updates, take your time :)
Thank you!

[essbeejay]

I appreciate that so much, thank you for understanding ♥

who was it. I just wanna talk to them...

[trtle]

Fuck the internet. Sorry to hear you're going through a lot of crap. It's awesome to hear from you again though and I hope you're finding some solace through all the bs. <3

Re: who was it. I just wanna talk to them...

[essbeejay]

Less crap now, much more solace! Thank you ♥

[otakuspirit]

yikes! i am so sorry that things exploded last year. especially with unemployment and the depression. sometimes i feel its all getting harder. for everyone. i'm glad you have a handle on things now. i hope things continue to be manageable and that you have nice and beautiful things to look forward to.

[essbeejay]

Thank you! I know it's weird to say, but honestly unemployment has been a little bit of a blessing in disguise since it's forcibly slowed aspects of my life down and given me space to mentally recover enough to actually feel like writing in the first place. Despite the uncertainty at the moment I'm doing much better on the whole.

Oh my gohd

[mrsheep]

Oh my god, okay first of all you cant belive how happy and excited we are that your back again.
Secondly, it sucks what happend to you in the last years but good to know your doing better, and i sure hope you gonna be better for a whole while because im ready for you to do your thing in here and create for us some goooood

Re: Oh my gohd

[essbeejay]

Same! That is, same as in I'm happy to be active again, and I hope things'll be better for awhile too! Thanks for the support ♥