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2020-11-08 10:11 am
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It took me centuries but these are finally done!

[personal profile] jujuandgetdown requested reds, forced to visit a psychic and get a reading! Hopefully some of y'all recognize the character!

To Make it True )

And with that, requests (from 2019...) are now done! These are currently being x-posted to ao3.

Be safe and healthy and good to each other. ♥

AO3 | FFNet | AskFM
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2020-09-12 10:57 am
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I'm not dead!

[personal profile] philosophicwax requested Boomer, hustlin'. I kinda gave away the plot on this semi-recent askFM question.

The Big Chair )

Someday I will finish these all. (Soon.) Thank you for your patience.

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2020-06-30 08:49 am

I can always tell when it's time to post a ficlet

Right about the time I get sick of looking at it!

[personal profile] ironysgrace requested Reds, specifically Brick finding Blossom's dark side intriguing. I'm pretty sure I went very sideways with this prompt but I hope you enjoy it nonetheless!

Title stolen from the Æon Flux episode from which I also stole the conclusion: Ether Drift Theory. )

Thank you, as always, for your patience.

AO3 | FFNet | AskFM | Ko-Fi (currently closed)

By the by, I'm doing this civic action calendar starting this week (I know it's labeled for the month of June, but like most writerly folk, I'm a procrastinator). If you feel like following along it'd mean a lot. ♥
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2020-01-19 05:43 pm

dear god just let me be buried here

Finally finished my revisions and read-through of ch11, so that's off to Round 2 of beta. God that read-through had no business taking that long. It offends me how long that took. Well, it does and doesn't. Just the idea. Whatever.

Since I'm in the TEF mindset, I reckon I'll be moving on to the FD11a revisions I got stalled on. And then when I get stalled on those again I'll circle back around to the ficlets that have been taking me 9 months to write so far.

Speaking of the ficlets, I did find some additional scrapped bits in my notes app from back in October for that Reds share a bed ficlet. I initially jotted these down from Brick's POV.

Are you really leaving Yeah Do you have to You should go back to your room Do I have to *turn* *kiss*

His hair has gotten long again

Her mouth still tastes faintly of the travel size mouthwash from the bathroom, hasn't yet soured, and it somehow makes this feel more perfect, more inevitable, more like kismet. The stars aligning for him, for them. Just this once.

It's chilly. Want me to adjust the thermostat?

Her knees bump into his and he wants to touch them, suddenly. But she's burrowing close now.

"Whatever you say, boss/You're the boss"


I remember reading over these the next day and thinking 'I don't want to do this from Brick's POV, I don't want him to drive the narrative of the story and besides that I already wrote Lorca from his POV' so during my actual writing time on this one I re-centered on Blossom. While there's things I do like about writing from the Boys' POVs, I want to avoid it as much as possible when it comes to describing physical desire/attraction. I don't want to play into any sort of Madonna/Whore tropes with the Girls, especially since the Good v Evil thing already exists between them and the Boys. I have lots of thoughts on this which maybe I'll get around to someday.

Anyway some of y'all are gonna lose your minds in this next chapter and I apologize in advance
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2019-12-07 10:27 am
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Last one of these for awhile

[personal profile] coffee_tea_2020 requested Reds and romance. This underwent some changes mostly in how I decided to approach romance; I wound up settling on maybe a more abstract take on it I guess?

Pathetic Fallacy )

This is going to be the last one for a bit; I've gone back to revising TEF ch11 in the past week so the ficlets have gone to the backburner. Thanks for bearing with ♥
essbeejay: professor also wins at cosplay (you have got to be kidding me)
2019-11-30 09:24 am
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Considering the recent holiday this is fairly apropos

[personal profile] otakuspirit requested Prof U's pov on the relationships between the Girls & the Boys. I hesitated to get too in depth as it is something that gets touched on in a few chapters in TEF proper.

Let's call this one The View from the Sidelines. )

Working my way through these, bit by bit! Thanks as always for your patience ♥
essbeejay: saving the world. (saving the world.)
2019-11-27 09:42 am

assorted scraps from the last reds ficlet

I mentioned that the last Reds ficlet underwent some rewrites. A common problem I think I have is I get too hung up on trying to set things up, which you don't always have time for in a short piece.

Here was my first attempt at the intro. )

The other thing I don't love about the early intro I wrote is it doesn't quite set up the right tone; it's a little too heavy and bleak.

I also suffered from not having read the prompt correctly; for some reason my brain dropped the "school trip" aspect during my initial writings so I instead wasted spent most of my early words on the idea that the Reds were coming together as adults long after a tortured on/off again relationship, culminating in them sleeping together. Blossom's discovery of the condoms in their room (her room in the finished draft) was originally much more drawn out - like, she winds up checking them and discovering some jackass has stuck a pin in a few of them and throws those out, hence the bit later on down where she has a moment of panic after grabbing one.

You might also notice that heavy/bleak tone carries over here, too. )

Oof, maudlin as hell. Is it too late for me to say this is an early draft? There's good bits and pieces but the whole of it is too, too. Just so overwrought. Ugh.

It carried over into the ending, which, with some cuts/edits, I was able to salvage for the final draft. I really liked the idea of the two of them pretending to be asleep just so they could have a little more time together. )

Did I mention this was overwrought? Ugh, yeah. I spent a couple of weeks very into this version, then, upon reading it over, I felt like it was just sad breakup porn for the sake of bad breakup porn, basically. I stepped away from it for a few weeks. Sometimes what happens is I work on a thing so much that I hate it, then come back and go "Wait, this is Not Terrible," but when that didn't happen with this one and my re-read consisted of me cringing at the Melodramatic Purple Prose Painyness of it all, I knew I needed to rework it. And then I reread the prompt and went Oh wait this wouldn't have worked anyway lol.

Part of the problem I had was with the nature of the Only One Bed trope itself - it's popular for a reason, but I didn't want to play to the usual hijinks, I wanted to try and play it straight. I thought it would be more interesting for the tension to come not from "We're attracted to each other and now we have to share a bed, OH NO," but from "We're attracted to each other but have a long history of things Definitely Not Working Out Between Us Despite Trying To Make It Work and now we have to share a bed, well great," but that just resulted in this mess.

I also did not like how passive Blossom came across in this early attempt. While she does make some choices, too many things just kind of happen to her here, and I never love her being so hung up and desperate for Brick's attention that she makes bad choices, especially for the sake of drama. I wanted her choices in this story to have more neutral-to-positive consequences, the one exception being the end when everything culminates in BOTH of them not being ready to face the prospect of making this relationship they both want real.

I'm happy with where it wound up - them in separate rooms, and Blossom being the one to make that choice and open the door and share the bed. I think the final version is more sweet and hopeful while still maintaining that sadness that I can't ever seem to not write for this pairing.

On a final note, here is the song that was included in [personal profile] otakuspirit's original prompt:


I also drew heavily from this one for them sharing the bed (I know I've posted it before, but w/e idwiw). For some reason this kind of EDM really puts me in a sappy, romantic mood.


I've got some scrapped bits from the Greens ficlet that recently got posted as well, though it's not nearly as much. Just a few lines that served as general inspo. Next week! For everyone who's celebrating, have a Happy Turkey Day in the meantime 🦃
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2019-11-23 09:53 am
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And now, back to the Greens

[personal profile] drunkonust requested Butch being receptive to a lady's bedroom needs, Buttercup specifically. Vaguely nsfw I guess, given the subject matter, but it's all pretty oblique.

Apparently I have a thing for the Greens saying 'Come here' to each other. Calling this one Field Notes. )

Thank you, as always, for your patience. ♥
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2019-11-17 09:05 am
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Another one for the Reds fans

[personal profile] otakuspirit requested "TEF!Reds on a school trip end up getting separated from the group and have to spend a night in a motel room together" (a classic).

This one underwent a few different rewrites which I'll maybe get into later this week. Also, disclaimer that this is not part of TEF!canon and basically assumes the Reds have had no significant interaction (certainly not romantically-inclined interaction) between where TEF is currently at (ch10a) and the timeline of this ficlet.

Also, still not exactly happy, but less sad than the last one.

Stealing the title from the song that was included in the prompt: Dust to Dust. )

Thanks for your patience, as always. ♥
essbeejay: saving the world. (saving the world.)
2019-11-09 04:22 am
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Can't sleep, guess I'll post a ficlet

[personal profile] sluggie requested Brick and "a new forming obsession of something or someone and the way he handles it." It's not exactly happy; I promise the next one will be less sad.

I cheated with this title because it's a reference. The Remembrance )

Thanks for your patience, as always. ♥
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2019-07-14 03:55 pm
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I swear I don't mean for all the Greens ficlets to keep getting posted first

But the Reds ones keep getting revisited and reworked or straight-up disappearing when I call upon them to show up and as for the Boomer one... well, I gotta get that one right for Philly's sake.

I managed to wrestle the fluff out, but let it be known, this is what I was struggling with last night -

Me: Fluff! We are here to write fluff!
Brain: Fluff! Okay! I can do that!
Brain: *blood*
Brain: *injuries*
Brain: *ANGST*
Me: This... is not fluff.
Brain: ... Not fluff?
Me: This is not fluff, we must start over.
Brain: *p...porn?*
Me: NO WHAT ARE YOU DOING

Alright well with that backstory out of the way, for [personal profile] blue_aurora who requested TEF!Greens fluff. In truth, this is not truly TEF!Greens - I wanted to avoid writing them as teens again, so I decided to tackle an adult version of what could be considered their TEF!versions.

I need to hire somebody to make titles for me. Celestial Navigation. )

Thank you for your patience. ♥
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2019-06-14 02:20 am
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Greens fans are getting lucky 'round these here parts

The gas tank that is my body is running pretty low on fuel and high on nausea right now. Dumb. It needs sleep. (I promise you will get sleep soon, body. Thanks for carrying on.)

I had hours to kill, so I brought along the USB that all my writing is loaded up on with the intention of burning through some of those fic requests, only to discover the stupid laptop I was equipped with only possesses USB-C ports. DAMN IT MAC. STUPID DESIGN.

I wound up working locally on a request I hadn't started yet instead - and then I finished it. So here it is!

[personal profile] roseshower requested a Greens kissing competition.

These titles are killing me. Let's go with Sign. )

As always, thank you for your patience. ♥
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2019-05-14 09:22 am
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Ficlet Request #1

I know this wasn't the first request, but it's the first one that got done, so SHRUG EMOJI?

[personal profile] bassy requested Greens making out. (This probably isn't as literal as you were looking for.)

wth do I call this? Let's go with Erosion, I guess. )

Work progresses on the rest. Thanks always for your patience. ♥
essbeejay: ppg: stackable (ppg: stackable)
2019-04-16 09:43 am
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Taking requests. (I'm probably gonna regret this commitment)

I'm in between TEF revisions and for whatever reason all the other ideas rolling about in my head aren't appealing enough to me to write, so the next ten comments on this post get a PpG ficlet.

Rules:
1) Please include a character or a ship!
2) Please include a word prompt!
3) M-rated stuff allowed (but I reserve the right to turn down particular kinks)!
4) Limit of TWO REQUESTS per person!

My goal is to get them written within the next two weeks. We'll see how that goes! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ


ETA: All spots are filled, requests are now closed!
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2017-12-31 07:08 pm
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It's New Year's Eve!

What the hell, first person to comment with a prompt gets a drabble!
essbeejay: bored roar (ROAR.)
2017-11-12 11:39 pm
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I fear I may regret this, but what the hell.

First person to comment on this post with a prompt gets a drabble (or drabble-plus) written for them.
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2011-02-13 06:22 pm

Happy early Valentine's Day to you all!

I think I mentioned so before, but it bears repeating and further embellishment: these were ridiculously fun to write. Some more obviously so than others.

There did wind up being a little bit of a narrative connection between a few of them, and a lot of them reference little things in the show, so if you catch those... um, basically I love you and am crazy proud to know you. FELLOW WINNER. (Edit: Bonus points if you are able to name all the songs in one of them. You'll probably know when you hit it.) (Edit the second: Extra life if you can name whose flapjacks the Professor is referring to.)

Valentine 2011 requests! ROLL 'EM. )

A pre-emptive Happy Valentine's Day to you all ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
essbeejay: it's hard work working hard, think think think, prof!buttercup (it's hard work working hard)
2011-02-11 07:59 pm

TFRV

Did a bunch of work on the Valentines today. Wound up totally fucking rejecting this Valentine. If you're familiar with the way I write my couples you can probably guess who this is from.

--

You lost your bow in our last fight.

Well, I took it. Your bow. Formerly yours. Now it’s mine. Forever. And you can’t ever have it back.

Because I hate you.

(Day is insignificant.)

--

These have been fun so far!

Requests for Valentines are still open :) Please read the rules before you make your request!
essbeejay: i'm happy and i'm driving! (i'm happy and i'm driving!)
2011-02-10 05:36 pm

Valentine's 2011 request list

To make it easier on me to keep track, here's a list of what has been requested of me so far. If you gave me two characters and left it to my discretion you'll see I've already selected from whom to whom for most of them. This way in case anybody wants to request something going the other way involving those two characters, you still have the opportunity to :) (And yes, it would appear I am doing all of these, as they are turning out to be quite short.)

[personal profile] juxtaposie - Boomer → Bubbles
[personal profile] busterella - Bubbles → Princess
[personal profile] busterella - Snake → Ms. Keane
[personal profile] busterella - Mojo → ???*
[personal profile] busterella - Professor → ???*
[personal profile] busterella - Belladonna → Ace
[profile] ancilla_jokes - Buttercup → Butch
[profile] ancilla_jokes - Professor ←/→ Girls
[profile] ancilla_jokes - Robin → Professor
[profile] getcape_fly - Blossom → Brick
[profile] the_audren_file - Buttercup → Brick
[profile] xxlonelyxgrlxx - Brick → Bubbles
[profile] thisoldhighway - Butch → Buttercup
[profile] demon_bird - Ms. Bellum → Fuzzy Lumpkins
Anonymous - Brick → Blossom
[profile] quillbender - Boomer → Buttercup
[personal profile] spfizz - Ace → Buttercup
[personal profile] laleia - Bubbles → Mojo
[personal profile] philosophicwax - Boomer → Brick (Philly I love you)
[personal profile] philosophicwax - Him → Mayor
Anonymous - Bubbles → Brick

*I have already decided who the recipient is, but am refraining from sharing lest I spoil the surprise. If you happen to request the character I have in mind for either of these then I will just ask you to pick someone else ;)

If you are just now joining the party, I am celebrating the successful recovery of my writing files (WHOO!) by taking Valentine requests.
  • See here for some examples of what you'll get.
  • You may request a Valentine from ONE character to another character within the ORIGINAL PpG!verse from me. (I will not accept PpGZ requests, PpGD requests, or crossovers of any sort.)
  • They can be ANY CHARACTERS YOU WANT.
  • Length will be variable but all will be short and most will be fluffy.
  • I will not do double requests (e.g., if I receive five requests for "Brick → Blossom" I will only honor one "Brick → Blossom" request).
  • You may request more than one, but that doesn't mean abuse the system (read: don't abuse me).
  • If you request more than one I reserve the right to only fulfill one of your requests (so if you have a favorite, let me know what it is and I'll be sure to at least fulfill your top choice!).
  • Requests will close at midnight this Saturday.

The other day I wrote an entire scene that I already knew would not be in my final draft of TEF. I wrote it anyway. It was fun. And totally influenced by the influx of horror I've been subjecting myself to lately. Brick's a scary fucking bastard, even as a fourteen-year-old.
essbeejay: \o/ (ppg: \o/)
2011-02-09 10:27 am

RE-FREAKING-JOICE! Now with more request!cake!

You may recall that I ran into issues with my writing netbook a couple of weeks ago, resulting in what might have been the loss of various writing files from 2010. After some fussing with it I realized the bulk of my personal files appeared to be saved to my removable SD card (used to expand the storage on my netbook) as opposed to the netbook's internal storage.

To confirm the s.o. suggested I acquire a USB card reader and check on my "desktop" laptop. The reader finally arrived and despite my concern there might be some issues reading it in Windows when it was originally used on a Linux system, it totally worked! I have all my neat little files back and I am happy. SOOOOO HAPPY.

Now I can finally wipe my netbook and hope it hasn't died forever on me. Even if that's the case, though (*SOB*) at least I have my data back!


DANCE DANCE DANCE

ETA: Okay guys, I am so giddy that I am feeling SUPER SUPER GENEROUS. Valentine's Day is coming up. You may request a Valentine from ONE character to another character within the PpG!verse from me. They can be ANY CHARACTERS YOU WANT. Length will vary but I think it's safe to say they will not be long.

The last time I did anything remotely related to this holiday and the PpG was back in 2007, but those should give you an idea of the type of thing you'll be getting. (The Reds ones from that post are pretty serious!cakes and drama!cakes; I'm thinking these are going to be more fluffy/fun. Or not. I'm bi-polar that way.)

Requests are open until midnight this Saturday! HIT ME.

ETA 2: I swear, I am always going to be editing my posts. Meant to add! If someone has already requested it, you cannot request it again! So, you know, Boomer's not going to send Bubbles eleven different Valentines. (Well...) I hope that makes sense. Feel free to ask if you want clarification!